My life flows on in endless song...

Well friends, as many of you know by now, there are some huge life changes headed my way…

In early July I will be packing up all of my earthly possessions, hugging some dear friends (probably tearfully, let’s just be honest), and driving away from my beloved Santa Barbara. I am moving 7 hours north to Santa Rosa to become the Director of Student Ministries at Redwood Covenant Church.

I am the perfect mix of stoked out of my mind and fairly nervous about this whole thing. Currently more stoked than nervous (which is why it’s the perfect mix). Ultimately, I go with the confidence that this IS what God wants me to do and he has opened every door on the way there. However, there is certainly a bit of trepidation. I love my SB life. I love being 5 minutes (or less) from the ocean. I love having my perfect place that I can go when life gets to be a little too overwhelming. I love Dargan’s, my local Irish pub. I love my friends, my church, my worship team, my youth group kids, and my roommates.

I worry that I’ll get up to Santa Rosa and I won’t fit. What if, even though there’s a job for me, there isn’t a place for me? What if I don’t find friends? What if I end up hating the city? What if I fail? What if…?

A great friend reminded me this evening that I won’t find the same relationships in Santa Rosa that I have in Santa Barbara. And that’s ok. I’m not out to replace any friends. I have to be ok with the period of loneliness that I will inevitably endure. I need to remain confident in the fact that God has brought me this far and will continue to walk alongside me, provide for me, and guide me.

For now I cling to the excitement and try to ignore the fear. I know God’s plans are far greater than I could ever imagine for myself. He is writing this song of my life and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

As scary as it may be, I can’t wait to learn the next verse…